When Peter Parker was a teenager, a radioactive spider bit him and imbued him with superpowers: the ability to climb buildings, shoot webs from his wrists, and sense when danger was approaching. He became Spider-Man. When Armond Rizzo was a teenager, he got fucked by a 12-inch cock and was given the rather incredible ability to take the monster dicks of performers like Rocco Steele and Cutler X. He became one of the most-talked about porn stars in recent memory.
In the same way ol’ Spidey frequently finds himself preyed upon by super-villains, Rizzo’s incredible hole instills deep jealousy amongst some porn fans who try to heap shame on him for his unabashed bottoming prowess. But Rizzo’s used to being under attack, thanks to a family that used to bully him relentlessly for being a “white sheep” (his cute twist on the term) who refused to do what his domineering dad commanded. He tries to focus on the fans, whose comments make him feel beautiful and inspired, and is already thinking of ways he can give back to them by sharing his story in a book and possibly, a documentary. “I want to… show my fans that, yes, you might know me as the guy who takes those monster dicks,” he tells me, “But I’m also a human being.” After taking a lengthy post-gym shower, Rizzo called me to discuss his upbringing, his dark years in the US Navy, and the secret to taking those big, big dicks.
Adam: So you just got home and took a shower. Are you still naked?
Armond Rizzo: No.
That’s too bad. Are you from San Diego originally?
No, I’m from Aurora, Illinois, but I normally say Chicago, because most people don’t even know where Aurora is. But if I tell it to people who are from there, they’re always like, “You’re from Aurora.”Is there a different accent or temperament about Aurora?
Chicago’s a city so the people are different, you know? They talk about living in the ghetto and this and that. I grew up in the suburbs. That’s why they’re like you didn’t grow up in Chicago in the city. I was raised differently because of my circumstances and my area. That’s why people check me.
Is Aurora a racially diverse place?
It was founded by German people so there was a lot of white culture in the beginning, but then the trains started connecting Chicago and Aurora, and bringing in more Latinos and African-Americans from Chicago. It’s a very Latin community now.
When you grew up did you feel like you were insulated amongst people who were like you? Or did you feel like the odd man out amongst white kids?
I remember my freshman year we had about two white people that I would see in the hallway. Then towards my senior year, there was a drastic change in our school and culture in Aurora. We started getting more white people. By senior year there were about two hundred white people in our school. It’s not like I was only surrounded by Latino people, there were Asians, whites, blacks. It was pretty mixed. But you can kind of tell that there were more Latinos than any other group. But I always felt like the oddball growing up. Even in my own family I felt like the oddball. I didn’t listen to Latin music that much. I listened to Britney Spears and pop stuff like that. I dressed more preppy. I was like the white sheep in the family. It led to me liking mostly white guys. But yeah, I was lucky to be around all these different races. Growing up my family was pretty racist, so for me to be able to see that for my own eyes and have my own perspective on it changed a lot. It changed my family. I started bringing a lot of my black friends over, and my dad would grumble and say shit, but I never saw color. Later on my family started realizing that we are all human beings and have our own commonality. It was pretty amazing that I was able to change the views of my own family and have them go from being very racist to very open.
That’s great. But I know that you were bullied a lot in your family?
Yeah. It was mostly from my father and my brothers. My brothers were so close to my dad that they just followed his lead with everything. My father grew up in Mexico, his entire life, working on a farm, with this whole machismo thing: you’re the man of the house, you put your foot down and everyone has to listen. That’s how my father was raised and how he wanted to raise us. But the only reason why he bullied me was because I didn’t do what he said. I felt like, “Hey, I’ve learned English, this is a different world that we live in. Things are done very, very, very differently. You don’t understand because you grew up in Mexico.” He came to the United States for a better life for us, but yet he was trying to keep us in this old-school Mexican way of living. That’s why me and my dad never really got along. We were very different right from the start. But it didn’t really make it easy growing up, because I always had to defend myself and fight for myself.
Did you ever have a moment of confrontation with him where you stood up and said I’m not going to take this shit anymore?
We’ve had many moments in our life like that. The first time was when I was in high school. My brothers had already dropped out and made mistakes and gotten girls pregnant. My father assumed that I was going to do the same. He never gave me a chance. One time he called me and said “You’re coming straight home from school.” I said no. I wanted to do join sports, and do extracurricular activities. I loved my school and had a lot of school spirit. I wanted to do the things that normal kids do. He was like “No you’re coming straight home.” So I disobeyed him and said “No, you don’t know what’s good for me, I know what’s good for me.” That’s the first time I told him I’m not going to do what he wants, I’m going to do what’s good for me. It pretty much spiraled downhill after that. My dad pretty much stopped talking to me. He just kind of gave up on me. He said, “He’s acting like his brothers. He thinks he can do whatever the hell he wants.”
He didn’t hear what you were saying. He was just seeing the disobedience.
I just knew what was good for me and that he couldn’t understand because of the language barrier. I always hoped that he would understand the reasons why I did certain things, but he never did. He’s pretty stubborn. That kind of hurt me in the long run emotionally. I did all this stuff for him and he never said, “I’m proud of you.” He always saw stuff as a negative thing.
Like in high school trying to fit in and do extracurricular stuff? Or the porn stuff?
No, the school stuff. Joining sports and other things. I did it all for my family because I wanted a better name for my family. Aurora’s a very small town. Everybody knows everybody. Everybody knew my brothers. Even my teachers, when they saw my last name and they looked at me, they said, “Oh you’re going to be just like your brothers.” For me it was a constant fight to prove that I was different, I’m not them and I’m not going to make the same mistakes they did.
So in high school at some point you take a dick that’s 12 inches long. That’s your first time?
How did that happen?
Well, that was actually right after my graduation. I was in the closet and waiting for when I could be away from all the other students to really dive in. Instead of going for a smaller dick I dived onto the biggest dick. I don’t know why. It was my 18th birthday gift to myself.
Did you look for someone with the biggest dick?
It was more the person. This person was there for me through my parents’ divorce and really empowered and motivated me a lot. The connection we had… that made it easy to take. You kind of lose yourself in those moments during sex when you have a close connection with somebody. That’s why I was able to take it, which led to me now being able to handle such monster dicks. It was pretty amazing. A little painful, but it was softened by the connection.
Did you bleed after?
Surprisingly, no. He showed me pictures of it beforehand. I said, “I want to try and take it.” He said, “Nope, I’m gonna give you a dildo that’s the same size as my dick, and I want you to record it when you can take the whole thing. Once you can do that, I’ll see if you can take the real thing.” So while my parents were sleeping, I was in my own room, playing with my hole, trying to get this big thing inside of me. Once I did, I took a picture and video and sent it to him and said, “I’m ready.” The following week when it happened, I had already prepared myself.
That’s interesting because people see you and think, “Oh my god, how can this small kid take these enormous dicks. But you’re saying it’s all about doing the prep work. You weren’t born with a god-given ability to just walk in a room and sit on them.
Right. Being an athlete and being able to control my breathing has helped me a lot. Being able to relax my body helps. I know that when I’m struggling, all I have to do is take a deep breath, control my breathing, focus and relax, and once I do that, it’s showtime.
Do you do poppers?
Are they more of a crutch if you can’t take the dick?
More like, when I don’t have a connection with my partner in that scene, I kinda need a little something else to help me relax.
Or possibly with a client?
Exactly. But if it’s someone I have a deep connection with, I don’t need it, because I already trust that person.
You joined the Navy after high school, right?
Yes. I was living in Norfolk, Virginia for four years, then after that I was gonna re-enlist, but they told me that I had to stay in Virginia for three more years. I hate Virginia with such a passion. So I didn’t re-enlist. I moved back to my mom’s place, and I was online chatting on Jack’d and I ended up talking to Shane Frost. I was like, “Oh my god I grew up watching you online. I can’t believe I’m talking to you.” I told him I was interested in doing porn. I’ve always been a freak. I used to have sex in cars, or under a bridge by a highway in Virginia. I wanted to try porn out. I thought it was hot. He said, “Alright. Take some selfies and we’ll get started.” Sure enough, he sent my photos to everybody, and Randy Blue called back and I did a solo jack off scene with them. But then I didn’t hear from them for a while. I needed money so I went to culinary school briefly, but it wasn’t for me. I contacted Shane again and said, “Alright, let’s give it another go.” Then I went to The Hookies and ran into some of the Raging Stallion directors and some other porn stars. I knew some of them already but when they met me in person they were like, “Hmmmm, okay, fill out the application. We would love to work with you.” I filled it out online and within 24 hours I had a email with my flight and itinerary and everything. I was shooting for Bruno Bond, and my first scene partner was Landon Conrad. I was pretty shocked. He was insanely hot and on top of his game.
And you’re suddenly in the big leagues with the big stars over there.
Yeah. I was worried I would be starstruck, but yeah that’s how it all started. I thank Bruno, and Steve Cruz and Landon for teaching me the ropes and being cool with me. That scene really started my career.
So during your time in the military you were having sex in cars and under bridges? Did this take place prior to Don’t Ask Don’t Tell being repealed.
Yes. It was towards the end of my career that they got rid of that. The reason I was doing that stuff was that when I was at work, I was so focused on work. I wasn’t focused on trying to meet my husband at work, or future boyfriend. Whenever my co-workers tried to ask me personal questions, I would tell them it was none of their business. I was just there to work. They didn’t need to know my personal life. So I always separated those two things, and me not being able to be myself at work, kind of made me become this crazy horny ass guy outside of work. Cause I was playing a character at work, not being myself. So when I was out of work it was just crazy, get your freak on time.
Is there a moment from that period that you still think about when you wanna jerk off today?
No. For me it was a dark, dark time in my life. I tried to forget so much everything that happened there. It was a very tough time for me, trying to find myself and in the midst of that being told how to think, act, dress, behave. I was so confused, and got so many rejections from everybody that there’s nothing I want to remember. If I want to jerk off, I think about the first time with me taking that 12-inch dick. That period was much more fun and hot and I definitely think of that sometimes to. But 2008 to 2012 is a period in my life that I wish never happened.
It’s been about three years or so that you’ve been in the industry, right? What was your learning curve? I ask this to a lot of people. How quickly do you become acclimated, and what big realizations do you have?
I definitely learned that porn is not what you think it is at home. There’s a lot of things involved. Long hours. It’s a good time sometimes. I definitely learned about camera angles. It makes it easier to help the director. I’m focused on that. I use the sides of my eyes to see where the camera is, where the light is, and move as they move instead of them stopping and saying “Change angles.” It helps after they cut to ask the directors why they put the lights there or there. You do learn a lot from that, and it makes the job easier. For instance, if they’re putting the light over there, it means they’re shining it in this direction to highlight this body part so I need to open myself up for that. You learn how to direct yourself from the directors. I always ask the directors questions. Sometimes they mind, sometimes they don’t. I just want to be someone who’s easy to work with. I never want anyone to say “He was so hard to work with.”
What’s the drama offscreen? Are there people you’ve had conflicts with?
I’ve never had issues with directors. I’ve always respected them and their work. I’m a perfectionist myself. I’ve always strived to give them their artistic vision. I respect art. Even if I wasn’t comfortable doing something, I still tried my best to give them their vision. I definitely learned not to date other porn stars because that’s where the drama comes in. I’m an adult and if I’m ever in a venue, I respect the people in the venue, and present myself with more respect and try not to bring drama. But there definitely has been drama. I try to bite my tongue but if I feel disrespected, I can’t. I try to let people know that they’re making everyone feel really bad. I had an issue like that after Hustlaball. This person was talking about one of their co-workers and started pointing fingers at everybody else. I wasn’t happy with that and called him out on that. I’m still pretty upset about it, but he walked away.
I don’t know if you read my conversation with Adam Russo a couple of weeks ago, but he mentioned you guys had a kind of thing and that you guys broke up because you were jealous of him.
I wasn’t so much jealous of him, but when we were together, I was very new to California and very lonely. I kind of needed a support system and that was him. But we’re two different people. He’s very sexually active and he loves his boys, which is fine. For me, I’m more of a one-on-one kind of person. I’m more emotional too. I did get jealous of the different boys, but I also felt like, okay, you’re telling me I’m the only one but you’re calling all these other boys baby, I didn’t feel special enough for him. I didn’t want to feel like I wasn’t good enough to be number one. Not number one, because I respected his relationship with Cutler X, but I didn’t want to be like the 15th or 50th boy. It wasn’t making me feel good. I knew I had to let that go and find myself and know that I can do this on on my own and not rely so much on a daddy. That’s why I ended it. He’s an incredible guy, very supportive and caring. He would pick me up when I was down. He was my porn daddy mentor. He was there when I felt like I needed a father figure. I completely respect him and am not upset with him.
He didn’t make it seem like there was bad blood or anything.
No no, there isn’t. We have good memories. He said, “Sometimes it’s time to let the bird out of the cage and let him be himself.” It was definitely my time.
Your brothers were disappointments to your dad. Does he know what you do, and what does he think about it?
My father doesn’t know that I do porn. My brothers did tell him I was gay. He said he was okay with it, but we really don’t speak. It’s always pretty awkward when we sit together at the same table. My older brother is the only one who knows. I told him because I wanted at least one person in my family to know the truth about why I travel so much and why there’s so many model-esque pictures of me out there. He was really cool with it. He said to be safe and don’t get involved in the other things like drugs and things. He said he loved me. That was great to hear from the older brother who I always looked up to.
Especially since you had a bad relationship with him at some point.
Yeah. They started realizing who their father was, and how he was using them, after I spent so many years trying to open their eyes. We had a four-year war. Every time I would come home it would be one fight after the other, cause I would call him “your father” and they would get really upset by that, because I denied that he was my father to people, because he didn’t act like a father to me. But later on they realized that he only cared about himself and nobody else. They started realizing the truth. They started apologizing for not seeing things earlier. We started talking again. My coming out to my brothers and being able to open up to them brought us closer together. We’re closer than ever. I tell them all the time that they’re the brothers I always wanted. It was a tough road to get there but it was worth it.
Your brother told you to be safe, but you do bareback porn. Tell me about how that all came about and how you approach the safety angle.
I did bareback porn because I wasn’t getting calls from other studios and I needed money, badly. I said, fuck it. Let me try it. I did it. When it comes to how approach it, I let the public make their own assumptions about it. I don’t think I’m ready to let them know if I’m on prep or if i’m poz or negative. They’re watching porn and they’re going to think whatever they want, and at this time, because I have other projects involving my story in the works – I’m thinking of writing a book and making a documentary about my life – I’m hoping to open up then and be more truthful about the subject.
You’re thinking of writing a book?
Yeah. I don’t want to say I’m quitting porn, because it’s still too early, but in a way, for me, a lot of porn stars when they quit the industry, delete their social media accounts and go offline and disappear from the face of the earth. We don’t hear from them ever again. It’s such a waste, I feel like. Because they’ve worked so hard to create a fancies and then they throw it away. I’m a believer that by telling your story you can heal other people, so instead of throwing my hard work away, I want to leave something else behind. I want to utilize my fan base and the spotlight to show my fans that, yes, you might know me as the guy who takes those monster dicks, but I’m also a human being. This is who I am. This is my struggle and how I got to my success. Here’s my road. I’m a better person because of my struggle. I want to do a book where I can be more in depth about my pain and struggle – not just in high school and the Navy, but also with drugs and things like that.
You could call it “Armond Rizzo: The Hole Story”?
Mmm, it might be more like, “Armond Rizzo: The Real Me.” If I’m gonna tell my story I want to be able to tell my fans my real name, and have it be a real transformation. I can say, this is really me. If I am opening up this much for you guys its’ because you have made me realize that I am a beautiful person and helped me with sweet comments and support. It helps me. I want to help them back. I read my Twitter feed and read their touching comments and the art they create and it really helps me to heal and become a better person and love myself. I just want to give them the real me.
Adam Baran is a filmmaker, blogger, former online editor of Butt Magazine and co-curator of Queer/Art/Film. His short film JACKPOT, about a porn-hunting gay teen, won Best Short Film at the Miami Gay and Lesbian Film Festival, and was recently featured on The Huffington Post, Queerty, and Towleroad, among others. He is a features programmer at Outfest Los Angeles LGBT Film Festival and NewFest in New York. In his spare time, he complains about things to his friends. “Fisting for Compliments”, his weekly musings about the intersection of sex, art, porn, and history, will appear every Monday on TheSword. You can contact him at Adam@TheSword.com and follow him on Twitter at @ABaran999. Check out his previous columns in the Fisting For Compliments Archive.