In case you missed it the first 80,000 times he told you, the sometimes-retired Randy Blue model and father of two is gay-for-pay. Also, he’s straight. Also too, he only has sex with men for money.
Here’s a new interview (via Unzipped) Malachi did with someone from a site called Dining With Strangers (it’s not an escort blog; it claims to be a side project from a “working journalist”). It’s very long, and kind of insane, but here are the parts you might like:
Even though the two don’t talk about his current career, Malachi’s partner and her pregnancy is the reason he started doing adult videos for the gay porn website Randy Blue. But escorting came first…
The market just wasn’t there to be a heterosexual escort, so if he was going to enter the profession; he’d have to do it with men. One big problem: Malachi’s not gay, “If I was gay, I would be a lesbian.”
“I didn’t just jump into it. I was going through a lot of emotions mixed with stress and extreme motivation to make something of myself,” Malachi said. So he turned to his [gay] friend Carl for advice on what to do.
“It’s just a dick,” Carl told Malachi in an attempt to make him more comfortable with jerking a guy off. “When you masturbate you’re touching a dick, it’s just another guy’s dick.” Adopting this mentality — combined with debt problems and the use of a substantial amount of pot — was enough for Malachi to get over his initial strong reluctance to doing anything sexual with men.
Carl “coerced me into it and taught me the ropes,” Malachi said, first with a profile on a site called Rentboy on which male escorts can advertise their, well, companionship for sale.
“It gave me a weird gut feeling and I couldn’t believe I was doing it,” he said. But the financial benefit — $800 a client — was too much to pass up. “While I was working, in my mind I had to just keep saying the amount of money I’d make. That got me through it.”
Malachi developed a strategy of taking on submissive non-dominating clients that wouldn’t try to force him into doing anything he wasn’t comfortable with. “I would only go after the easy clients, the ones that just want to suck my dick or give me a hand-job or a massage. I’m kind of spoiled in a way because I can really use my looks and my body to filter out the more dominant clients” that might want to push him beyond his comfort level, he said.
Gay porn fans regularly hate on gay-for-pay models, but I’ve never had a problem with them. They’re just doing a job. What I have a problem with is the above. It’s the same thing he’s been saying since he “left” the industry last October. It’s the same thing he said in his “exit interview” with The Sword last November. It’s the incessant need to excuse, rationalize, and justify everything he’s done…for what? To prove something to himself? To his wife? To his fans, whom he doesn’t want to get the “wrong idea” about him (though it’s OK for them to have spent money on him)?
More of the same:
“There were times where I asked myself, am I gay? Is this just something that I’m using as an excuse? And I spent a lot of time exploring that in my mind,” he said.
This was in the thick of his career when he was making close to $25,000 a month, filming scenes for Randy Blue and hitting five major cities in a week to see clients all over the country (and sometimes the world). That’s a lot of sex. “So I explored if I could actually get turned on by a guy. I tried. But I couldn’t. The curiosity was answered and I knew I was heterosexual,” he said.
“I appreciate guys, I appreciate male camaraderie. I know what to appreciate out of males but I have no desire to have sex with them for pleasure. I’ve never done anything gay if I haven’t been paid for it. I put on a game face, a facade, a character, and I make money” being gay for pay, he added.
I asked Malachi how much longer he intends to stay in the gay for pay world, especially with the money being so bountiful. “It’s great money and a fast lifestyle if your mind and body can handle it. But I’ll be so glad to get out of it,” he said.
Ugh get out now.
Sorry, it’s just not fascinating that a straight person is able to have gay sex for money and not experience any pleasure. Big deal. A large percentage of actual gay porn stars also have gay sex for money and don’t experience pleasure; should they all have book deals, too?
Oh, yeah. The book:
[H]e originally intended to have the book out by December last year after announcing his retirement from the gay porn and escorting world one month earlier. But problems ensued. Writing the book was much harder than he anticipated, and money woes meant he had to step back in front of the camera in January. After that, he once again announced his retirement and was focused on finishing off the book.
That’s when he found out his partner was pregnant again. So money and other needs pulled him back into the escorting and gay porn industry, just as they first got him into it.
And he understands there is some frustration from people who had pre-paid for his book expecting to have read it by now. Malachi is fine with giving refunds to anyone who asks him for one — and there have been two such requests — but he said most of the people who have paid are willing to wait a little longer, and he wants to deliver.
“I should have waited to announce it later on, I shouldn’t have got so excited about it. But I know there’s a fun story to write, and it is coming.” He’s fixated on finishing the book by September for two reasons: one, it’s a contractual deadline to have it out by then and two — more importantly for Malachi — “it’ll be a healing process for myself to get it all out there.”
Ha. He needs to heal. Here, help him heal by buying the book about how all the money he made off of you hurt him so much that he needs to undergo a healing process. Amazing.
To his critics, Malachi has a simple response. “Fuck yourself.” His more elaborate response, “Everyone has a background, everyone has had problems and everyone has bills to pay.
“For every one that has some debate or that dislikes me there are 100 that like me. People ask me, ‘How can you be straight’? You can. It’s just like anybody who worked a job they didn’t enjoy. It’s like being a laborer. I was not a laborer in my mind when I was working construction jobs. I didn’t enjoy it. Who enjoys 10 hours of construction in the blistering heat and you’re burned out? I did gay for pay for money. It pays a heck of a lot more and it’s a job. I can program myself to do a j-o-b, especially in these hard economic times.”
If it’s all for money and it’s “just a job,” why don’t you “just” fucking do it? Do your job! Stop talking about it.
Malachi filmed his most recent scene for Randy Blue earlier in July, and he knows this one will really be his last for them — barring the need for more funds.
He said it was stressful getting back in front of the camera, surrounded by blinding fluorescent lights while getting it on with another man. “It was difficult. There’s this intense heat from the lights shining on you, and four crew people are watching you, and it’s stop-go, stop-go. I had the biggest headache and I came home and I threw up. It fucked me up.”